Sunday, November 23, 2008

When I First Turned To God

When I first turned to God I have to admit it was out of fear. I was in a dysfunctional relationship, raising my son on my own, my father the first love of my life had recently passed away and I was being physically and emotionally drained by the insanity on my job everyday. I turned to God because I was scared. If I am honest I will admit that I turned to him as a last resort. And He was there for me just the same. He welcomed me with open and loving arms. He comforted me through lonely nights, pain, and confusion. God comforts me still.

The best thing I have ever done for myself and my son was begin to actively and aggressively pursue a relationship with God. Doing all I could to understand His word and His purpose for my life I began to read the bible and have conversations with anyone who would talk to me about His goodness and His mercy. It was the beginning of a beautiful relationship and I fully credit My Creator for saving the life that He created in me.

I am an infant in my relationship and journey with God. It has been less than 2 years since I began to pursue God and His plan for me with enthusiasm. Each day I am more encouraged than the day before. With each story I read, with each testimony I hear, I am further and further convinced and convicted that there is a divine purpose for my life and for the lives of all of God’s people.


It fills my heart to know and understand that all the things that God did for those “bible days” people, He will do for me. They are my brothers and sisters and He is our father. Internalizing the stories and scenarios presented in the bible, seeing myself and my circumstances in this sacred and ancient text has made all the difference in my life.

4 comments:

Unknown said...

God is faithful and kind and never failing. It is an awesome journey and I am excited about everything he is doing in your life right now! Remember
According to 2 Corinthians 2:14
"Now thanks be unto God, which always causeth us to triumph in Christ, and maketh manifest the savour of his knowledge by us in every place" YOU WIN!!!!!! We actually have an unfair advantage over the enemy that sucka!

I love you and I am praying for you always, -22

mshonieb said...

I was raised in the church and baptized at an early age; a choice I made at the age of 10. I have since lived a roller coaster of a life that has been filled with ups and downs but-for every up he's given me wings and a soft cusion to land on when I fall. No weapon formed against me shall prosper and that is the knowledge you need for confidence!!

Unknown said...

I hear peace in the words I read, but on this journey we have all been tried by fire (some of which we set ourselves), but I am at this moment inspired to pick up my Bible with focus and genuine intention...

blessings
danna

Boissiere said...

I would be curious to get your thoughts on balancing the desire to follow your passion in life with discerning your God-ordained purpose.

A good friend recently wrote, "While we can cast about for the vision by looking at the things we can see that God put in us, things like our talents, and interests, that path is dangerous for God’s work because He often has hidden things in us."

Thoughts???